hmmmmmmm

yeah!!!.......i just feel............hmm... like am on the right track..but now am looking for the fire....am not feeling motivated to do what am supposed to do........1 day u come up with this concept to overcome procastination and u follow it for a while, then the other day.... u just find ur self not just...hmm. procastinating the so called solution to procastination.........
i guess its all gud..though...but theres 1 thing keeping me happy..hey..i got jesus .. so i don't have 2 worry....... hmm wish it was that easy... God help me...... u know wat am tinking now..hu will want to read this particular...post..haa but big deal... i just gotta pour out ma feelings........... JESUS. am asking for your help..cause i just donot feel the sparrk to work........... the zeal..... last week was cul............i just don't want to ..or i feel that when i ain't close to God some things tend to move freely.......but when am close to him...wait a minute.....am feeling the fire.. or the spark..watever u want to call it.... when i think of Jesus i just feel happy...
God seems more real to me now... well i guess he is.....noooo..b4 nko..GOD IS SOO REAL... i love him soo much.......................really.. was thinking of them worldly songs, love songs to be precise and things  and i realise that tose songs should actually be sang for God.. as in lets take this song for instance....any song.. saying ..  i love u girl . i love u girl... aint' nothin wrong in saying u love some1.. obviously.. so as i was saying.. saying i love u girl can actually be" i love you lord i love you lord"

That aside .. i have met so many people in ma little life.. those that u like tose u donot like.... those u neva nu they had this attitude or that.. and those that you ..I LOVE......yeah those i love.. the 1 i love........
i have come across situations that u feel u can't handle but at the end of the day, looking at urself int he ligh of that situation..u actually handled them properly..with God on ur side....................hmmmmmmmmmmm so much to talk abour.. you know i was suposed to name this blog the ramblings of dry martini,..... but i think.... i don't know.. watcha tink......................anyways stay safe stay blesed God loves you.. more than u can ever imagine.............urs.............expressingly.........marins